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Brother
I think I felt you breaking
I think you heard me crying in my sleep
And they sat me in a little room
And
made me think, what would I do
If you had died
If you were gone
I'm sorry that I cried.
But brother
I feel
the pain you fake
And I suffer from the choices you make
And maybe it's my own fault
For being so weak
And they
gave me a piece of paper
With lines running all across it
And said that that was me
And I had to wonder
What do
all those lines mean?
But I meant that I was sick
And I guess I cried
Cause in another way
I may have died
And
when I look back on everything that made me this way
And I think back to that day
When the ambulance came
And took
you away
The tragedies I've faced, i think about
And I know
That you were in that same house
I keep walking away
to
live my life in another place
And I come home
And I'm alone
And I'm no one at all
Maybe I should have talked to
you
Maybe you should have known
The truth
Then maybe you would understand
How much it really hurts
How much
you're hurting me
Brother
No one knows me
Anymore
I loved someone
Who burnt me to the core
Brother
I
don't want you to go through that
Or anything bad
So I get mad
And that day on the phone
I know that cried
And
showed a little
Of what is inside
Brother
Sometimes
In my mind
You didn't make it
And When I tell that to
my heart
I break it
And I think of all the yelling
Screaming
Broken glass
And I think about all the times
It's
happened in the past
And the people around town
that know who we are
Don't know
That it's so hard
And I smile
And
they smile
And I pretend to be happy
For just a little while
Cause maybe if they don't see me sad
Then I'm not
sad at all
And maybe if they can't her me cry
Then I'm not crying
I know
I'm lying
If I tried to tell anyone
What
the secret people in my life have done
They wouldn't understand
They could never see
And I can't live with the idea
Of
them not believing me
Brother
I never wanted to lose you
I never wanted
You to go through
A place
where
you felt that you needed
attention
Or something
I know you're just trying to stop
The yelling, the fighting
Police
cars
And crying
And thats what caused me to run
To a place
Where they lived to hurt me
Rocks tearing at my
skin
Glass in my eyes
And no one
Heard
The cries
And that time when we were at the mall
And they had that
drill
We had to leave
Cause maybe there was something going on
And I laughed
And you couldn't see why
But it
was because
I would have loved to die
I still think about it sometimes
I look back at it
And I tell the world
I'm better now
And I tell myself I'm better now
And my fever grows a little
Everytime
And I wish I could help
everyone
Brother
I wish I could fix them all
But I can't see anyone
And I'm too ashamed to call
Brother
We
are
A broken family
How is it that it only affects you and me?
I hide in my closet sometimes
And under my bed
Close
my eyes
Put down my head
And wish
That I
Were dead
And I know you're sick too
Brother
But I know
That
you don't feel
What I do
Brother
Tears fall too quickly to see
I bleed
And do you know why?
One day
Maybe
I'll
take down this wall
Maybe open up my door
Let someone know
What it's like in here
Cause they don't know
And
you don't know
Sometimes i wonder
If I even know
Brother
I'm trying not to break down
I'm trying to stay around
Smile
Just
a little while
When I leave this room
Until i come back
And I can't
See
Through
The tears
Brother
I
know what it feels like
To crave the knife
And to live a life
Surrounded by people who have no idea
And the ones
that do
Are the ones
That I had to leave
Brother
I need you to believe
I would have died
If you had died
I
keep saying I'm okay
I lied
Brother
Just make it go away now
Just make it go away
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