I wasn't thinking about it
I thought I could do without it
But I was wrong
I'm always wrong
And I think this has gone on
a little too long
Cause when I was a kid
I never did
Anything that would lead me
to deserve to be
in the place
that I am
and after everything I've done
to fix it
I can't fix it
you can't fix it
And my hair got long
While I was gone
While I was lost out there
My body sunk
my skin grew fare
And I think about
The times that I've missed out on
While I was gone
And since I've been home
I see
How much went wrong
And won't ever be the same agian
I wish I'd have
known that then
how much I would miss
Cause I might have fought harder
To exist
But one year
two years
three years went by
While I was floating
somewhere in the sky
And once I got off the floor
I wasn't sure
if I belonged here anymore
My baby sister
Not in diapers anymore
Now she reads novels
And studies religion
and my brother is not some toddler
screaming and kicking
big and strong
and playing football
the oldest is in college
and the next is leaving in the fall
So are these people the same ones I left?
when I left
Cuase I left
for way too long
too hard for a poem
too sad for a song
what am I suposed to do now?
Cause this is wrong
And I can't conceal the truth
or hold on to youth
And I can't sit still
Take some pill
And make it artificially go away
Oh what a day
What a long, long day this has been
Stop screaming
I hear you
try listening for a while
Cause it dosen't reach my eyes
when I smile
Anymore
And don't think of me
as the girl who took a fall
But as the girl
who lived thru it all
And she's back
so step back
And give her room
to come back
And I'm sorry if I get
a little angry sometimes
And all out of sort
But don't ride the break
if you don't want to stop short
Because it's a hell of a fight
to come back to life
But look who made it
look who got through
the very girl that you thought
didn't even want to
So don't go thinking
things about me
Cause you can't figure me out
if you do it without me
So give me a little space
a dollar or two
and a little time
away from you
get off my back
it's not about you
and your pushing
which is an awful thing to do
Don't think it's hard to watch me
try having to be me
you didn't try to stop me
while i was slipping away
so when I'm trying to come back
don't stand in my way
give me a break
you say all we do is take
but think about it
those miles you drive
the money you hand out
how much of that was me?
figure it out
I never asked for anything
just a little understanding
But you never thought about
what I was going through
just about
how it affected you
and even on the days
that I'd hate you with a passion
I still payed attention
and watching what happened
Because I try to know people from afar
once I get too close
it gets too hard
and it wasn't ever up to me
to decide on either sad or happy
So I was missing out a lot
and look how much
time I lost
But now I'm ready to go
so let me go
Just get out of my way
Cause I woke up finally
today
even though it seems
that everything ends
with people leaving me
so don't get mad at me
If I don't hear you calling me
Cause I need to play my music loud
Because that's the only way
for me to get out
and nothing makes
that girl feel better
than screaming along
So, for God's sake, let her!
